My superpower is my commitment to bettering myself because in the process I better others. Welcome to myspace, take a look around, get to know me and my process; open your mind to the freedom in self discovery.
I wonder do people think I am crazy when I say I started writing at 5. I don't know if it sounds strange to hear but it sure does sound strange to share. Especially since I am comparing it to my son who is obsessed with being a ninja. Yes, I know we are completely different human beings but man what a difference.
I feel like I experienced death early, my neighbor's grandmother died when I was about 5. I remember playing with my neighbor or at least wanting to. She was much older than me. She did everything before me, so I guess I kind of looked up to her. I used to go over to her house and see what she was up to with her almost grown self, then one day the flower appeared on the front porch and my grandmother told me the news. I don't remember how I felt, I just know I was moved to write. I was 5, it wasn't like I could buy her anything. So I gave her what I knew how to, a poem. It would be so dope if I could recite it, right? Oh please, I was 5. I can't remember it, what I do remember is receiving praise for having wrote it. So, I continued to write.
I dreamed so vividly as a child and it seemed the dreams I could remember were always about death or loss in general. At 6 I had one of the scariest dream I've ever had, I actually still remember it. I told my great-grandmother the dream. I don't recall her response, I just remember coming home from school and seeing an uncle on the porch I didn't see often. He gave me the news, my great-grandmother had passed. Now add these two deaths to the fact that I was born into a family who had suffered a great loss a few years before I was born, I guess it would make sense why I grew obsessed with it. I continued to write.
I used to fill page after page. I am pretty sure that if I still had any of those notebooks it would hold some pretty interesting thoughts. Throughout elementary school that was my saving grace, but as I got older, my need to write seemed to diminish. It was either that or writing wasn't cool and being cool was all the rage. I am not exactly sure which. It wasn't until I felt the need to deal with some deeply buried issues that I picked up my pen again. After a few years of getting back into practice I released my first published work, My Hearts Content. It was one of the scariest things I had ever done, writing down my feelings then sharing them. It was a big deal for me. Ironically, its release was the same year that my grandmother passed.
After its release I received requests for Volume II. Those requests made me feel awesome but they also scared me. I expected the release of this volume to cure everything I had every dealt with, all of the emotions that I buried deep, I expected to suddenly vanish once I released this book into the world. All of the hurt associated with losing one of the pillars of my family was supposed to dissipate with its release. Surprise, Surprise. That did not happen, not even close.
I took a break from writing to focus on other things, but the way my passion is set up. I found my way back and go figure that all of my writing is centered on getting over things and healing. In the midst of finding my groove, I discovered my superpower: my commitment to bettering myself, because in the process I better others. So, here I am focused on finding my peace so that I can lead you to yours.
Discovery is a lifelong journey that starts with a single step.
Identify the areas of your life you would like to improve.
A lot of time we get comfortable complaining with no real intentions on improving. The reality is, that mentality is counterproductive. If you really want to see a change in your life, you will have to do the work. Make a list of the areas you would like to improve and set a timeline for doing so.
Identify your fears.
If you’re still reading, chances are you want to know how to find your happy. Your happy is on other side of your fears. Identify what those areas are and work to overcome them. I don’t necessarily subscribe to the thought that fears aren’t real; they are as real as your mind tells you they are. Frankly, it isn’t always an easy task to get over them. It takes work.
Identify what gives you that happy feeling.
When talking with people about their happy place, I always tell them it’s already inside you. You just have to be still and listen. Align your thoughts with what makes you happy, then align your actions.
Embrace your now, be present.
There are so many lessons in what’s happening to you today. There are so many reasons to be thankful today. There is so much good in today. I don’t want you to get so caught up in tomorrow or 6 months from now that you neglect to be grateful. One of the main contributors to my unhappiness was my insatiable appetite. I was always looking forward to some point in time that was not today, that wasn’t even close to today and even if I closed my eyes it bared no resemblance to today. I’m sure with that description you can see why I was unhappy. I was tying how I felt today to some point in the future that would take some serious time to reach. This, my friends, ain’t it. It will put you in all kinds of funks and nobody has time for that. Embrace your now, live in it, love in it, create your happy in it.
"There's no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside of you."
- Maya Angelou
Are they against you or are you a Coward?
I had this revelation yesterday, Friday June 16th, where I asked myself if our perceptions of people being against us are real? Or are they reflections of our fears?
She loved incredibly hard, almost too hard. Opening herself up like she had nothing to lose and in her case, she didn’t. Loving was just a part of life.
I used to pray that I'd live forever, and I will - through my written work.
A product of a small town, she had big dreams of conquering the world. In the midst of it all, life happened; side tracked she became, blinded by the drug known as love, abandoned by self and nurtured by heartache. She found a way to recommit, she found a way to redirect her frustrations, she found herself. Join her as she chronicles her progress in poetic form.
21 Steps to Self Discovery was born out of a project with my best friend. She allowed me to vent when I needed to and in return I told her I would create a project for her, a set of questions that I’ve had to ask myself over the years to really get down to the nitty gritty of who I was and what I wanted in life. It wasn’t always a pretty sight but it was my truth and I had to accept it. In doing so, my path became clearer. Through the process I let a lot of things go and I distanced myself from a lot of people. I knew all of this was necessary in order for me to get to where I desired to be. I decided to take this project public after realizing how helpful it would be for others to do the same. Getting to know who you are and establishing an unconditional love for yourself is where freedom lies.
The "Get S.M.A.R.T. goal setting companion is designed to help goal getters clearly identify where they want to go while mapping out how they will get there. This process isn't an easy one but creating goals that make sense alleviates some of the stress. I want to see people reach their goals and for that reason I have made this workbook completely free. Grab your copy and get to work on accomplishing your goals.
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